Hi everyone, back for another post after a week from posting... been busy with work lately as I have juz started my new job in a new environment recently and is trying to adapt to it... as for school, I need to get ready to prepare myself for the exams as it is coming up in another few weeks time... really need to aim to pass all my modules from now on as I really want to aim for graduation at the end of the year...
Yesterday, I met Nic for a dinner and movie date at The Cathay @ Dhoby Ghaut after our work ends (after all, we didnt really met up for like 1-2 months after our last outing together)... we had dinner @ Astons and walked around the mall before we watched the Part 2 of the Divergent movie (title: "The Divergent Series - Insurgent") @ 9.25pm which I had booked the tickets according to his schedule and timing a few days ago... overall, I only had two words to describe this movie from Part 1 to Part 2 (as Part 1 I have already watched it with him too) and that is "NICE MOVIE"...
After the movie (which ends abt 11.30-11.55pm), Nic sent me home where during the whole journey we talked abt my frenz, his online chat with gals, my past etc... as usual after he has given up on Christine and started to go online chat with gals again... so far he has chat with 7 gals and out of 7 gals, 3 gals have only decided to be frenz with him due to some secrets like me... and also, apparently he liked one gal from online (name is lixun, age 31) which is younger than him 2 yrs... like the same process, he will show me the photo and asked me abt my opinion and even bought her a LINE Cony toy keychain... my ans is only 3 dots lol but deep down in my heart, I feel envy for her as she is the lucky one... haixz...
Now, I dunno how to describe this feeling of mine... it seems like this feelings keep coming back and forth lol... for e.g. when Nic complimented me yesterday morning, I kept laughing all the way as this is the 1st time a guy ever tell me that he is blessed to have a good friend like me as I have made his life brighter and willing to accept any challenges like a boss when faced with a tiny issue... this made my feelings come back again... I know we are frenz but wad is he trying to imply by saying all this?
Also, throughout the whole outing with him, I realised that he started to show care and concern for me... during the dinner he pulled my chair out so as to let me sit... den when we started chatting on drinking alcohol, he asked me if want to go drinking with him one day... not only that, when we pass by a shop that sells a cute stuff toy and I liked it, he say that he will buy for me if I like it nxt time lol... I was like speechless but when I hear that, I dunno why but I wanted to try if he is really going to buy a toy for me one day... this feeling has really touches my heart liao... however, these feelings does not last long...
When we reached at my hse downstairs, we sat at the void deck and chatted for a while... and get to know why our r/s is only frenz... coz is particularly due to the secrets that I have told him in one of the outings earlier... when he told me that, I had mixed feelings about this... first, I was happy that when I asked him, he told me that he has forgotten abt my secrets so he will never leak out to anyone... however, at the same time, I also feeling sad as again, he and me will not have any chance to be together (as a couple) in the future liao...
I guess at this stage, I think I will have to let it go of this r/s totally... since Nic has forgotten abt my secrets and his promises to me... in addition, I think I will not let him know about my feelings towards him and let him moved on to another gal... therefore, from this day onwards, I will only wish him happiness forever and hope he can end up with the gal he liked one day... also, I will only treat him as a good close friend although I know I dun have much friends that can accompany me when I am feeling down (even though Nic mentioned that I can talk to him if I had no one to talk to)... but since I have to let it go, I should not keep on troubling him on small trivial matters...
Well, looks like I really need a longer time to heal this r/s liao... haixz... although we are friends, I really hope that the memories that was created by both of us during this time are kept in my heart forever... and I hope that any future memories created by us are all the good ones (including just 2 of us watching the Divergent series movie from Part 1 all the way till the movie really end)... and also, like I mentioned in my previous post, if he really come back to me one day, I hope I will be able to sort out my feelings and be able to decide by then already...
Ok, gtg liao as I need to get up early later to do my project for Mon's presentation... good night and sweet dreams everyone, I will post again once I have the time again! Btw, below is a pic of my dinner @ Astons! 
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| Crispy Fried Fish |
